Items to my Closet ♥

I bought and was gifted with some new items for my closet which was left on for some times. Lets check it out. It makes me to loss some sort of my stress when I see new items in my closet ♥

Rack for papers.

New bag :)

Laptop Skin Retro :)

New watch from mum :)

Heels from my sweet sista :)

Nude flat shoes from SomeOne :)

And the greatest gift eva! MP4 in Blue ♥

And there are many more to go. Next entry coz I forgot to take picture of it. A new headphone with phone accesories and few T-shirts :D

Pain :(

Sad. Bored. Tired. Pain. Stress. All came up together and driving me to hell currently. I need more time for myself. My ownself. Just me and my life. For sometime. Till I get a good picture of my future. Why its just very hard for me to live on.

Is the problem really caused by me? But, why I dont realise it even after many times I falled and skinned my knees.

I wish there'll be rain. That can wash away all my pain. Now itself!

p/s : Please understand !

Will u still be there?

Will u still love me even if I’m not perfect? Wil u stil love me even if I’m not the kind of person u wished I were? Wil u stil look into my eyes with warmth wen we make love? Wil u still hold my hands even if u knew ter will b times I’d let u down?

For though I yearn to take care of u as I should, though I desire to love u wit a love tat never falters and fades, my knees tremble tis very moment tat u hold me in ur arms. Shall I hold ur hand and bask in the light of ur spirit knowing tat I have my darkness, knowing ter will be times tat the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness tat is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and might bore u. I may not laugh at ur jokes, and you may not understand the spell tat’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words wat the hell it is tat troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and might not enjoy the things u’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before u today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say tings I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much tat I might drive u crazy.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get hurt easily. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say tings I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect u and make u happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause u the most pain.

If u will love me, I cannot promise u tat I wil not hurt u. I cannot promise u tat I will not make u cry and that I’ll never break ur heart. But if u love me, I will bare my whole self naked before u, and I will reveal to u my soul. If u will love me, u can be certain tat it is I tat u wil love, not a mask tata fools u and gives u only wat ur eyes desire to see. If u will love me, u can be certain tat u will love the depths of me, all of me tat is in me, and I in turn will love u with all of me, with all my soul, wit all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty and with all my heart!

Polo for my Mother (:

I bought a new handbag for my mother. I wats planning for it for a long time actually. Finally I got it for my lovely mum after months.

Its from Polo ! Seriously, it really looks good on my mum. I taught its kinda big for her. But trust me, It was damn nice. For the first time in my LIFE, Im really really really satisfisd after buying someting wif my own money.

p/s : Nice aite?

My HEART !

Something had touched my HEART today !

And hell yeah !

Its YOU !

Is it wrong to care?

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

p/s : Just wish 'MY SUMONE' would read this. SO he knows how I really feel towards HIM !

Credit to Diwi Sis blog !

Fat-en-ing

Im damn stressed for this past few days. I ate aloot today. Seriously like aloot today. Hang out with girlfriends today at our SECRET park. Seriously I ate alot today.

Starts with lunch at McDonald, then Nasi goreng Cina, Burger Ayam special and additional, I finishd almost a F**king bottle of this :

Cn u imagine? A bottle of this is finished !

Im seriously under a very bad stress! I know. I need break form all this and YES ! I need a vacation ! :'(

OMG !

Im very very very the busy currently ! Assignmnts, assesments and presentations are going beyong my occipital level. Huhu ! Stil standing on.

It has been 4 days since I stepped to gym. So bad. Will try to make myself to be there tomorow. M goin to my college library tomorrow. We do have group discussions for CardioRespiratory subject's presentation.

Im sick of being the Monitor of my class. I almost lost my voice due to shouting to about 99 students in my class. Holly shit ! And I really hate being the leader to my group 1 for almost 4 subjects. It burdens u know. Kwakwakwa ! I mght end up being mad soon. Hope there'll b WiFi connections in Tanjung Rambutan.

Im waiting eagerly for Sunday! 3rd april 11 *suprise*

p/s : I miss HIM aloot !